Living in a Fairytale

I really do think I live in a fairytale. Everything that happens is just a scene in my fairytale. I want those fairytale endings, I believe everything works out in the end. But the end is getting closer and I'm getting older... when does my fairytale come together?

I think that's where I think too much, I just always want everything to be perfect, but I don't realize that not everything is perfect. If everything was perfect, there would be no excitement.

I think I've been learning a lot about myself lately. A lot about what I want, who I want to be, where I see myself in the future...

I just need to stop thinking so much. But it's hard to stop when that's all you've ever done.

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I had a dream you missed me. I wish it were true.

The stress is eating me alive.

I'm really, really busy... all the time... which is making me really, really stressed. Just everything is so stressful. Living arrangements, my internship, work, school, family, relationships... everything. Nothing is just not stressful and something I look forward to. I swear I'm going to die of a heart attack before I'm even 25. I'm too young to be this stressed. I NEED TO leave Georgia! I feel like this place is the cause of all my stress. I need to leave and go to a remote island for atleast a year and not have any communication with anyone. Maybe change my name, dye my hair, get surgery... just start a new life. I really, really need to relieve my stress. Can someone just make SOMETHING better? Just one thing out of the six I mentioned. Anything. Please?

Yay?

So, it's officially my birthday, and I'm writing in this.

I really wanted to celebrate it, but its MY birthday. Is it selfish of me to think that someone would care to go out of their way to try to make it special for me? Especially since my 21st birthday sucked. I don't want to make any effort, yet, it's me making it. I just feel alone, like I have no one. I don't know what I want. I'm just unsatisfied with everything going on in my life. I need to move, I need to leave Georgia, I need to go somewhere where I can figure out who I am. I'm not happy. I just need to finish school first so I have nothing holding me back in Georgia. I hate it here. I hate not being close to anyone anymore.

Yay, Happy 22nd birthday to me.

I really don't like putting titles on these.

 ‎"The whole point of love, is to put someone elses needs above yours."

I just don't understand why this concept is so hard to grasp. Isn't love about sacrifice? Isn't love about giving up something you love doing, because the person you're with means more to you than anything else? Isn't it about doing things you love with the person you love and sharing this passion? I just want someone to share this passion with me. 

I don't know what I'm doing for my birthday yet... the one person I want to spend it with doesn't want to spend it with me. I'm just in this place in my life where I don't see my life going anywhere. I'm ready to progress, but it doesn't seem like that's what life has in store for me. I don't know what God wants me to do right now. I don't like where I am...

Love?

As I was driving home today, I was stopped in front of a couple on a motorcycle. They weren't at all young, probably around their 50's. I couldn't help but stare at them from my rearview mirror. They just looked soo happy. They were hugging each other, giving kisses, laughing... why can't I be happy like that? I want that, that's all I ever wanted.

I just want to be loved and I want someone to love me. Not just love me, but NEED me. I just want it sooo bad. I was sitting in my car listening to Love The Way You Lie by Eminem ft. Rihanna, and just started crying. I hope they didn't see me and think I was some sort of crazy person. I don't know why that song just makes me so emotional. I was such a wreck.

I just want a love like the Notebook. I want someone to stay by my side for the rest of my life, I want someone to love me even when I don't remember them. I want to lay in bed in each others arms. I want to share my every feeling and thought with that one person. I just want it sooooo bad. Why can't I have it?

It's been a entire week since I haven't said one word to him. I feel like it really is just over. I don't want it to be, but I can't take any more deceit or pain from the one person that's supposed to make me feel like life is worth living. I don't feel that way... I want to though... not with just anyone, but with him. It's not happening though, nor does it feel like he wants it to happen.

I better stop before I turn into a even bigger emotional wreck.

Farah

Randoms.

What's going to happen to Justin Bieber when he hits puberty?

Have any of you heard about the new world record for largest boobs?

The girl, Sheyla Hershey, beat the world record with KKK size boobs, and now is going through complications after her last plastic surgery. What I want to know is, why would you even want boobs that big?? They don't look good, at all, and I can't even see how anyone would find that attractive. I think she needs to reevaluate her life. I don't even feel bad for her. Here is her website: http://sheylahershey.net/


I need more time in my life. This has been the most stressful and longest summer session of my life. At least it's over on Monday. BLAH.

Farah